很辛苦 真的很辛苦 心里从来没这么痛过 是它在告诉我是时候放弃了吗??

一年了 坚持那么久 为的是什么 我不懂 我就是懂要坚持

现在累了 你是个聪明的人 你应该感觉到我们之间真的变了吧

有一天我相信我说我不再找你了 你也会接受 什么事情我都不确定 唯独这件事我可以很确定

对不起 让你累了 也让我自己累了

这次我放手了 真的很痛很痛

谢谢你给了我很多我曾经没有过的感觉 让我特别的依赖你

我不想等到你说你有男友了 我才要放手 我怕我那时会接受不到这个事实

我会哭 你懂我很容易哭 目前为止你是第一个让我哭最多次的人 你真的很特别

我懂等待的结果是什么 我看文章 文章里说到每当你想放弃的时候 想想当初坚持的理由

这句话很有意思 只是我再也找不到我该坚持的理由了

对不起，我放弃了

Broga hill expenditure

Morning call by Boon Liang at 2plus..

Reason : help him to wake jing hui up==

but the problem is after 20++ call to jingle bell..

he does not wake up also ==

so we decide to let him sleep...

around 4 he come and fetch me and we straight go to Broga hill..

however, we get lost in semenyih..

what we dont know is the place we get lost is so near to broga that we just need to turn to the right after traffic light.. but we made a round back ==

we manage to reach broga at 5.30am... start our adventure with hui ying and siek moi..

the road is pitch dark that we need to depend on our torchlight to see the light...

this hill is easier to hike compare to other hill that i hike...

Broga hill has 4peaks.. but huiying and siek moi manage to climb 2 peaks only..

but i call boon to climb to the highest peak with me..

i can say that climbing to the highest peak is the hardest..

we need to climb through rocks and steepy land..

it was very happy to climb to the highest ^^
we use 1hour to reach the highest peak..

i am satisfied with my performance today =)

the purpose of going there is to see sunrise and take some picture of it..

it is dissapointed that i cant manage to see any sunrise because of the clouds.. haiz..

after that take photo every angle on the peak =)

some funny photo was taken among us too.. hehe..

around 8am, we decide to climb down the hill and this is more challenging..

the steep is so steep that i had to slide down the hill instead of walking down ==

it took us about 1hour too to walk down..

after that we had our breakfast in leisure mall..

all of us were exhausted when we were in the car that i fall asleep.. ><

It is a great adventure to hike in broga hill..

I can say that it is the easiest hill to be climb by all peoples..

conclusion is I had a great day today ^^

我想她

Form 6 life is not as bad as I think it is..

Somehow I still manage to enjoy my life..

I made alot of new friends here and I like them..

But I like my old friends much more..

Somehow they are my classmate and friends for 5 to 11years..

I appreciate them much more after we enter form 6..

Having them here made me feel we are family...

This is what I feel after entering form 6..
Just want to say thank you for being with me for so long..
I really hope our friendship will not end eventhough we may leave one another one day..

开学咯..

很懒得去上学咯..

这两个星期我过着懒得生活过得很好..

我不想改..

都怪自己多事..

我不应该去看..

干吗要去看..

看了自己痛.. TT

it's me again.

I am here to active her bloggie.

*Boooooo*

我输了...

在这场感情里我输了...

我爱的 我永远得不到...

她爱的 偏偏就被放弃...

一切都过很快..

半年了..

我现在才懂我是个白痴...

告诉你 我没事 是骗你的..

我不是神 我只是一个再普通不过的普通人..

能笑不代表我真的没事了...

只是我不想在你面前掉下眼泪...

该说的我都在信息里说完了...

以后就让别人来给你我给不了的幸福...

我会祝福你 =)

Form 6

Form 6 start already..

Went to Cochrane school...

Orientation for 4 days in school..

Actually it is fun beside the ceramah dan taklimat all those things..

But what I dont like the most is the time...

monday and tuesday 2.40 only finish school..

wednesday and thursday 3.30..

How am I going to survive there...

Haiz...

I really hope I get the transfer as soon as possible..

It is damn tired and I feel I dont have any life studying there...

钢铁人

明天要开学了..

没有自由的生活就要开始了...

我不要啊！

咳...

听了特先生的钢铁人..

突然很想变成钢铁人..

钢铁人没有感觉..

不会感觉到痛...

我就是要将..

如果有一天我变冷漠了..

不要怪我..

我只是想保护自己..

Sunway one day trip

25/3/2011

Went to sunway today with NS friends...

Take lrt, ktm and bus take total time of 2 and a half hour...

I am damn tired of taking so long time transport to one place..

But what can i do..

All my friends were at there waiting for us...

Arrive at there around 12..

Went to have my breakfast first as I didnt take it because someone was rushing me..

Went to ice skating after that..

I like it alot!!

Best thing is that I didnt fall down for that day..

Haha...

Had alot of fun with Yvonne who had come to Kl with her family from Sabah, Cecilia, Carena, Vincent, Chong, Ken, Yung Fai (Ken's friends but just back from NS too) , Tai, Ck and Sam ( Ck's friend but not from NS)...

After ice skating, we went to bowling..

But actually we don't have enough of skating..

because of too many peoples inside..

They don't wanna play anymore..

Plus my beloved dear had waited for me a long time outside there..

So gotta go out fast..

P/S: My dear is not a real one.. she had boyfriend already.. Plus she is from Sarawak..

We played bowling...

What embarass me was I get zero for 3 time when I play..

I had never tried that before..

Lose to all the boys...

But till the end, luckily I am not the loser.. ^^

Finished the game, we took some photo in the bowling centre...

Cant upload photo at here as the photo is not at me now...

Take a look at my profile if you all want to see it...

After bowling, we went to have our early dinner as we know it will be a long time before we can reach home..

So we ate at there before we go back..

We ate sushi king which cost us RM200.00!!

The amount shock us all but I think is fine as 6 persons are eating in there...

After that we went home..

Begin our 2 and a half hour journey back home..

Reach 9 plus at friend house and mom fetch me from there..

But 10 plus only reach home as my mom and my friend mom talk quite a while at there...

It was tiring but I am happy...

I am happy to see my sabah and sarawak friends..

I am happy to play with them...

We have lot lot of fun although it was just one day...

We will made another gathering next time but not that far anymore..

I am scare of that long journey already...　^^

Lastly, for my babe who are going back to sabah and sarawak soon...

Do come to kl again...

We will made gathering again and play again...

I will miss you all alot..

Take care!

SPM Result Day

Yesterday is the day we get our SPM result...

I went back to school around 10 plus...

I saw many friends when I reached there...

All were still joking around...

But when teacher call us to go up to the hall..

All of us start to get nervous..

All hand were as cold as ice..

But we still went up to the hall after a while...

What made us more nervous was the teacher made us wait for almost an hour before we can get our result...

We wait and finally..

The principal went up to the stage and start to announce all the straight A's student...

At first I had a little hope that I can get it...

But when I listen to all the name that the principal announce...

I know I don't have chance anymore...

Although I know I cant get it, I am still happy for my friends who get it...

Congratulation to all of you!! ^^

Once more you all made our class proud as all the straight A's holder were from the same class..

After that went to take my result...

Of course need to line up and the procedure is slow as tortoise =.=

I waited for a while and I saw my file on the top..

I start nervous again..

But when I saw my result, I was damn down...

I expect to get more than what I get now...

But it wasnt..

No one to blame as it is my result...

What I can say is I dint put in effort...

Sorry that I had let my parent down...

Sorry that I had let my teacher down...

After take result, walk around the school...

I had see changes in it...

Don't know it is good or bad.. =)

But I am happy to see back my friends..

Sorry ther ther that I din't pui dao you king gai as I was on phone with my dad...

I am happy to see you all back..

I will go back on the other time...

That time we king puas-puas.. ^^

Stay at school till 1 plus after that fetch mayting go jusco..

After bringing mayting back to school, we went to time square neway to sing k..

Sing for 3 hours and shout out all the unhappiness in my heart...

I felt more relief...

After sing k, walk around ts to wait mayting to come...

Around 6plus leave ts, went to connaught pasar malam...

Go pack something to eat and went to maykay grandma house...

Go there eat and sit awhile...

Get scolded from mom for still don't want to go home although it is 10 plus already...

Faster call jenny fetch me go home...

Sorry bro for cant letting you stay there a bit longer... =(

Don't cry anymore..

You had cried too much today..

It was heartbreaking to see you like that...

Be strong as you still have us..

Reach home around 11..

Dad reach home earlier than me..

Luckily did not get scolding from him..

I wonder why nowaday he gave me so much freedom...

Is it he felt I am mature now?? haha

I don't know..

Perhaps my mom can give me an answer...

That's all for today.. =)

End of National Service

Yesterday is the last day of national service...

the night before yesterday, most of us didnt sleep at all..

we just chat and play around before sending the sarawak's people go back...

is quite hard to see them leave after we had been together for 2 and a half month...

2 and a half month is not a long period but is also not a short period..

we had been through many thing together...

the unity bond between us is just too strong to be broken..

we all cried when we send them back...

Yesterday morning we are the first batch to go back..

all people cried and hug each other before we leave..

when I see them cry, I cant control my tears too..

the tears just keep rolling down from my eyes...

I feel very sad to leave them...

so far I cry the worst yesterday..

What I can say is...

those who get chosen for PLKN, just go for the camp...

when you enter, you will know how much fun you can have in the camp..

until the last day, you will feel you dont want to leave the camp and also your friends...

seriuosly, I miss my dorm mate, my alpha girls and all the friends I have in the camp...

all the happy and sad moment that we had been through together will forever be kept in my heart...

I wont forget my kompeni, ALPHA..

I wont forget all the jurulatih in KEMSIS..

I surely wont forget all my members of ALPHA...

Thank for the memory you all had gave me...

Thank alot...

KEMSIS, YOU ARE THE BEST!!

National service

What can i say about plkn...

one word to describe it.. FUN!!

i have alot fun at there..

although i am not use to it at the first two week..

but i am use to it after that...

i know many friends and i learn many thing..

but one thing i hate is i need to climb a like a 'mount everest high' stair to go to my dorm...

it made my leg muscle become so stiff like an athlete leg...

however we are happy as all of us have lose weight... hehe

although there malay people more than chinese and indian but all of us can fool around together...

I totally glad and proud that i have enter ALPHA kompeni...

I am the T.oc for my kompeni...

i damn like my kompeni as all of us are so united..

what we do we do it together...

what we say we say it together..

even when we sing, we will all sing together no matter how many time the song repeat..

i cant describe my feeling when i see all the member of alpha are so united, spontaneous and sporting in every activity we join...

one word describe alpha--- BEST!!

i cant wait to go back to the camp to see my camp mate again...

by the way, wish all my friends and family..

Happy Chinese New Year!!

May all of you have a prosperous rabbit year!! ^^